Day 16
How time flies when you are having fun… or are extremely busy and focused on tasks at hand. When I went to write in my blog today about “eating healthy”. I was shocked that almost a week had gone by and I had not written about my eating. I can tell you that last Friday, I did go out to eat and instead of eating what I had planned to. (I had even brought my dehydrated food along) I ended up eating fish and chips. Instead of 4 pieces of fish that came with my meal, I only ate two pieces and had a salad with it. The interesting thing about it was that it didn’t even taste as good as I wanted it to. I have realized that when I eat regular “not so good” foods after eating raw, my taste buds are extra sensitive and I can taste the blandness of the food that is prepared in a mediocre diner. Not only that, I was acutely aware of the “wanting” of other foods such as ice cream, chocolate and chips afterwards. I attribute it to not getting the mineral and vitamins that I have been receiving from the raw food that made me “want” the unhealthy stuff.
The next day I noticed that I was not satisfied with anything. I was aware of my emotional turmoil that I was feeling. I have been doing some heavy duty “looking into myself” lately and since I no longer use drugs, alcohol and even sex (lol… no man to use sex with) I found myself wanting to use food. I also was very aware of my need to want to stuff myself because of outside stuff going on that I have no control over. I ended up getting Mexican food and taking it home. I also split it in half giving over half to my mom so I wouldn’t have any of it in the house. I enjoyed it but then again felt that desire to eat other things that weren’t so good for me. Luckily I had nothing in the house that was junky and all I had were the goodies I had made in the dehydrator and some fresh fruit and vegetables.
The past two days I have done well. I still have many goodies that I am eating on. I stopped at the store on Sunday to ensure that I had more choices in the house so I could fall back on healthy items. It was a sunny day and that helped alot. I also made sure I drank more water and got on my eleptical for a few minutes. I feel satisfied and full today. I have eaten a large amount of spinach, cucumber and miscellaneous vegie items to be used up. I blended it all in the food processor and put olives in as a garnish. Yum. I am bummed though that the avocados that I bought on Sunday are still unripe. Yesterday I started doing the prayer and meditation that the Essenes have done throughout time. Reflection in the morning and evening. I wrote down what I needed to remember on index cards so I can have them handy. I am still reading about the 7 fold peace that I will start to do at noon each day. I plan to make some index cards for each one so I also have that handy.
I had to smile last night after reading and meditating on Monday Evening Reflection, I felt this inner joy and excitement for the morning to come. Usually when I have to get up so early to see clients, I always wish that I wouldn’t have agreed to get up so early since I have usually stayed up way too late. I woke this morning with the same feeling. When I got to the spa, I sat out in the car and looked for the Tuesday Prayer and had to smile when it was about feeling Joy… feeling joy all through my limbs and the universe. I believe that I already was doing that last night. I like these prayers of each day a focus on something around us, within us. It is very healing.